My name is Peter Abdelmalak, and I am the founder of Love and Light 888 Inc. My journey to creating this organization is rooted in my own harrowing experiences, which have shaped my understanding of pain, struggle, and ultimately, transformation.
For too long, I lived in darkness. I medicated myself to numb the indescribable pain that clung to me, spiraling into a life filled with hate and violence. I hated myself and found myself in and out of jail. My children, through all of this turmoil, were placed in the care of the Department of Children and Family Services (DCFS) for eighteen months. In that period, I felt utterly defeated. I thought they would be better off with another family, and I began to lose all hope.
On one fateful day, I reached a low point that shook me to my core. A profound darkness enveloped me, and in a moment of despair, I pointed a gun to my head and pulled the trigger. By some miracle, it jammed. In my drug-tangled haze, I pointed it to the ground instead, and it went off. I was numb—unaware of the gravity of my actions, lost in a mix of oxytocin, cocaine, and fentanyl. I felt trapped in a cycle that seemed unbreakable. I was convinced that I would always be sick, always addicted to a lifestyle I thought I could never escape. I was a nobody.
Yet, amidst that darkness, something incredible happened. I sat in my vehicle, consumed by despair, hitting myself in the face and yelling to the universe: "If you are real, whatever they call you, whoever you are, show me the way!" In that moment, I felt an indescribable energy coursing through me. It was unlike anything I had ever experienced.
With newfound clarity, I whispered those words again, this time calmer. That energy returned, enveloping me in a warmth that awakened my spirit. It was as if for the first time, I could actually see the light—the sun shining down on me, which I had overlooked for so long.
Two weeks later, I regained custody of my children. I never imagined I would be clean, but I stopped using, stopped drinking, and even stopped smoking. I felt reborn—full of energy, alive in ways I never thought possible. One day, standing at the ocean, I picked up a rock and thanked the universe for healing and guiding me. I released that rock into the water, symbolizing my rebirth, and jumped in, feeling the divine energy of the universe flowing through me.
Now, when I approach others, I see pieces of myself reflected back. I recognize the struggles we all share. I understand that we are all connected, that there is a light within each of us. This is why I do what I do; it feeds my soul. My purpose is to help others discover their light and realize that they matter, that we’re all in this together.